The ache of love won

It is 5 minute Friday, and this week’s prompt is Ache. I had gotten into the habit of saying easy peasy” but with this prompt and what is on my heart this 5 minutes could seem very long. Just to reassure folks, what I describe here is from the past, it is not my current state of mind.


The week didn’t start well and went downhill. Not steadily downhill”, more like in gut-wrenching plummets. By the end I simply wanted it to end.

Not just work, not just the kids squabbling, not just the cold, wet, gloomy weather — everything.

And I knew how. Few of my waking moments had been devoid of considering how. Lots of possibilities, none nice but then the aching void screamed out for an abrupt end.

With heavier heart than I ever thought possible I kissed them goodnight, prayed for each and committed them into Jesus’ care. Aching with pain and despair I wept over the youngest.

What was I about to do? Would this destroy his life, a life only just begun?

In the end the ache of love won. I am still here.


Sorry for the rawness, but these things do need to be discussed sometimes.

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