Thank you God for the warmth of your sunshine,
thank you even for the chill air that makes me appreciate it.
Thank you that my cold fingers remind me of the coldness of my heart,
and towards other people.
Just as I cannot control the weather and nor can any man,
so I cannot control my heart.
But you have purchased my soul, you own my heart.
You are the Master Potter and the Refining Fire.
Melt my icy heart, incinerate away my dross.
My stony glare reflects my stony heart.
I could take counsel, I could act kindly,
but what overflows this mouth is the essence of a hurtful heart.
Take away the stoniness, kill my pride.
Teach me to value your fellowship rightly.
Teach me to value others more than myself.
Take me on a journey into knowing you,
and the sanctification of my soul.
I wrote this prayer in June 2010. About a month later I was diagnosed with severe depression and the journey since then has seen some pride killing and steps towards a less stony attitude towards others. God is at work, pray with me that He continues!