Fighting Through to Silence

For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence,for my hope is from him.
(Psalm 62:5 ESV)

This is the difficult work of faith – to wait in silence for God alone. Not a pathetic, passive silence but rather an active, aggressive laying hold of God while holding down a flighty, fearful heart. An obsessed doggedness to attain the soul’s singular ambition – to be saved through the only option it will accept: I will be saved through faith in Jesus Christ or not at all.

For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence,
for my hope is from him.
(Psalm 62:5 ESV)

This silence, fighting to wait for God alone, is not simply a lack of audible noise. The true silence penetrates deep, to my soul. All of the panicky soul noise must be quietened, fears quelled, a purposeful resisting of anxiety to wait in active stillness for my Saviour.

My silence is not to be the anxious falling asleep of a weary disciple (Mark 14:37-40). I can so easily exhaust myself worrying about how I will get through, should I be doing more, what if… For such anxieties Jesus would rebuke me (Matthew 6:27). It seems like the hardest thing in the world to quieten my soul and wait for God alone, I suppose this is why I do not have the spiritual strength of David – I don’t strengthen myself in the Lord (1 Samuel 30:6).

“In repentance and rest you shall be saved;
in quietness and in trust shall be your strength.”
(Isaiah 30:15 ESV)