If I had to choose a word to describe my life at the moment it would be ‘crepuscular’. The Oxford English Dictionary defines crepuscular as:
1 Resembling the twilight of morning or evening; dim, indistinct; not yet fully enlightened.
2 Of or pertaining to twilight.
Working shift work and with winter closing in it feels as if I live in a perpetual twilight, not only in terms of the light levels I experience but also socially — I am out of sync with the rest of society so my weekends occur at odd times and I have to work during the real weekends.
Then there are other aspects of me that could be described as dim and indistinct, maybe I will tell you about it one day.